Storytime: FIRST DATE

Happy new year guys!😊 How’s the year panning out for you? I hope you’re still sticking to those goals you wrote at the beginning of the year?😉

Here’s my first post this year and while it’s quite odd, it is really intriguing. So, enjoy!😄

Storytime: FIRST DATE

So we met for the first time on a Wednesday. He caught my attention because he looked so much like someone I knew. We both came to do something and it didn’t take long before we were done. I know I said something like I didn’t want to go home because it was early so my friend asked if we could just chill, and we all agreed- a friend and 3 strangers.

It was weird how we were all able to click, meeting for the first time and feeling like we had known each other for years. There was this peace around I felt, how 5 grown-ups were so vulnerable and played like children, how we felt so connected in a way that seemed pleasurable and how we felt so secured. Truth be told, the experience was amazing.

When it was time to part ways, the realization then dawned on me again- they were all strangers and we might never see again. We parted with lots of hug and loads of pictures. A memory I will forever cherish.

Fast forward to when I got home, I had to call to make sure everyone got home safe. Then I got a text saying “could we chill tomorrow and you know just talk”. I don’t know if that was a proper date but it was a date to me. Going on a date with a person you just met a day before felt so weird and I was so scared to mess things up.
I don’t know if there are rules that apply to how a first date should be, what you should do or not or the type of conversations you should have, where your first date should be, limit and boundaries.

Well, I actually did have a great date in the end and who cares anyway, I broke all rules.🥂(laughs)

IT’S A WRAP

I remember crossing over into 2020 with a lot of expectations, the year looked so bright and all I could see was the goodness that was to come with it. January went well and it made me hopeful and excited for the remaining months.

Guess what? Well, life happened 😂. Now I look back and all I can do is just laugh, it wasn’t funny back then cos I almost lost it. February was just there but we thank the Lord that we were able to go through all the challenges that came with it.

March generally is a special month for me. Something I really desired came through that month. Well, delay isn’t denial and God do make all things beautiful in his own time. The month came with so much positivity and I was able to go into the next month with that same energy.

April is also special for me, and I must say it came with a lot of amazing stuff. I joined a new community that month and they became family, met new friends and took up new skills, bonded more with family, and became more close to old friends, did a lot of reflection that month. Despite the lockdown April was amazing.

May and June made me cherish family more, I mean we were stuck together. We had fun together, prayed together and when a person was sad it affected the rest. Mehn, family is everything and I am super grateful for that gift.

Oh my July😊, I took a big step that month after a lot of thinking and procrastination but I did it anyway and I don’t regret it. I met amazing bloggers ( if I start to mention names, the list would be endless), to the one that also recommended the Korean series, thank you 😁. I followed my passion and it’s been an amazing ride.

AUGUST WAS PERFECT

September was a month of healing for me, it wasn’t as fast as I wanted it to be, but then healing is a gradual process and it takes time, you just have to be willing.

The month of End Sars, October to be remembered… May the soul of all those departed rest in perfect peace, Amen.

November made me have a deeper thought about this gift called life. All I experienced in room 101, the pain, the joy, the innocence and all of it just made me cherish this life the more. It felt like I was given a second chance to make things right. I made decisions that changed some things but then it was for the best.

December started with a memorable experience, the reboot camp ( it was heaven on earth). I love the fact that December is a season of celebration and also when you get to spend time with loved ones. It’s a season of Love and therefore we should share that love. Jesus is the reason for the season, so let us make sure we spread that good news😉.

A lot might think that there was nothing special about 2020, or they didn’t achieve much, I know a lot of expectations weren’t met. Sweetheart do not be hard on yourself, you might not have achieved the big wins but you got the little wins.

So, it’s a wrap. I hope to see y’all in 2021 and I can’t wait for us to go through that wonderful year together 🙂. I love you and cheers to the year ahead of us🥂.

UPDATES!

Dear Friends,

I know it’s been a while here, this year has really been mixed with so much of everything, a lot has been going on, a whole lot, starting with the whole country wahala down to personal stuff( gist for another day), but then I am getting better and stronger😊.

So, how are you? I would like to know how you have been, what you’ve been up to. I know this year has been tough and exhausting, I know it’s been draining and I know a lot of us had no choice other than being strong and hopeful.

I also hope you haven’t stopped dreaming, I hope you’ve brought to life that idea you’ve been nursing for a long time, I hope you are still strong and haven’t given up yet? Please still hang in there 🙏.

It’s still okay if you are trying to figure things out like myself, if you are taking a break and trying to catch your breath, it’s okay if you are taking it one step at a time without pressure. We don’t have it all figured out, but then, never stop trying 😉.

Do not forget to drop your comment, I look forward to hearing from you 🙂.

October 20th, 2020| BLACK TUESDAY| A MASSACRE| A GENOCIDE

Words fail me on days like this, I have been trying as much as possible to put myself together but I keep breaking down at every point.

October 20th, 2020 a day never to be forgotten, a black Tuesday it was. They told themselves if we sit on the floor with the national flag in our hands and recite the national anthem then we are safe. Little did we know that all we’ve got is ourselves, just me and you.

Our heroes were killed for begging that they don’t get killed. Our governments collectively killed peaceful protesters at the lekki toll gate. They didn’t even think twice, they didn’t think to have a conscience for once. The beast in them just wanted more and more blood, they found us as their perfect sacrifices.

Oh! what a country

I keep asking myself how did we get to this point, how did things get this bad, so many questions to be asked, yet no answers. A lot of people are broken and I am broken as well. I don’t know how to feel again at this moment but one thing is certain we won’t stop until we get justice.

If you are reading this, please take out time to pray for Nigeria, it doesn’t matter if you are Nigerian or not but please pray. May the souls of all those killed rest in peace 😔💔

IT NEVER ENDS

I won’t even lie, this year has been exhausting, I’m exhausted myself but there are so many reasons to make me keep pushing. If you’re from Nigeria and you’re reading this then you can understand what I am saying.

Well, the #ENDSARS #NOTOPOLICEBRUTALITY protests are still on, my fellow Nigeria youths aren’t going to relent, not now, not anytime soon. Kudos to everyone who has taken this fight as theirs, to those protesting physically and the online ones, to those in the medicals, security and the rest, this shows that there’s indeed strength in our unity, and to all those who called our youths lazy, I am pretty sure you are all surprised by now. I know someone out there might say all of this is none of their business, you don’t need to wait till it affects you or someone close to you before you know this fight is also your fight, better late than never, I advise you start now.

I also know you are exhausted, take a break if you have to, do not forget to take care of your health, eat well and rest when you can but when you are tired and want to quit do not forget those who lost their lives along the line, those people aren’t here but we are here for them, for us and our future.

#ENDSARS #NOTOPOLICEBRUTALITY

In his words I’m not fine, my whole body aches, I’m in pain, SARS wahala again.
So apparently my friend was harassed on the 3rd of October 2020 by SARS officials. He was afraid and he ran, can you blame him? At a time like this, all we want to do is just to live, is that too much to ask for?
He was released but not until he got the beating of his life plus an extra slap, lucky him he was freed, but what about those who weren’t lucky enough?

It hurts to know that even at 60 and after celebrating independence we’re still not free. Who do we blame?
The older generation went silent for so long probably that’s why we are here.

On the 10th of October 2020, the youths said enough is enough, enough of being treated like slaves and criminals in their own fathers land, enough of the harassment, brutality and killings, enough of them being treated like they don’t have rights.

A peaceful protest was the solution, so we thought, everyone, coming out with one voice to pass across one simple message #ENDSARS #NOTOPOLICEBRUTALITY. It was supposed to be a peaceful protest but what did the government and forces do in return, they turned against their people and shot at peaceful protesters, protesters that were begging not to get killed ended up losing their lives, oh what a country. Jimoh Isiaka wasn’t even a protester, yet he got shot and killed by this same police and SARS officials, his only offence was that he was an onlooker.

On the 11th of October 2020, the IGP said SARS had been dissolved, we were happy, we knew our voice did count for once, we should have known better not to rejoice too early in a country called Nigeria. That was their perfect scope, to make us relent. We asked for one more thing, let the president address the citizens, but our president never fails to surprise us, always in shock and being absent about the affairs of his own country. The media also turned their back on the youths, I mean they are also of the older generations, wickedness running in all of their veins.

Oh youths that are fully awake, we weren’t going to stop until we were heard, the protest continued, yet people were still harassed, killed, some were taken to the station, all of this simply because we are begging for a right to live, a right that’s ours…

12th October 2020, do you blame us if we say we aren’t backing out, we’re fighting to keep a generation alive, we’re fighting for the ones yet unborn, our older generations might have made the mistake of keeping quiet for 60 long years. For us, we don’t want to have any regrets in the future.
An unarmed man with his hands in his pocket was killed, probably he was married and even had kids.

I thought the SARS had already been dissolved, well I was wrong, the government did absolutely nothing about it. A 10year old boy was also killed, I mean what could have possibly been his offence, a lot of people have lost their lives just within the 10th – 12th of October…

We are not asking for much, we just want an end to SARS, an end to police brutality, the right to live and not being afraid because we never can tell if we are next.

#ENDSARS #NOTOPOLICEBRUTALITY

MOVED ON YET?

I don’t know how to feel at this particular time. So I am just going to let it all out here.

I know there are times we blame ourselves because we felt at one point or the other we could have done better, made different decisions or simply could have avoided the situation. This leaves us with questions we probably don’t have answers to. Other times we knew it was completely not our fault but we took the blame anyways ( story of my life).

So something happened some days back and I felt bad about it. I had blamed myself in time past concerning a particular issue and I handled it the best way I could, so I thought ( I moved on). Talking about it days back brought to my realization that I hadn’t exactly moved on, it was more like me pushing it aside and denying the truth even when I could see it staring at me.

I knew I could have done more and I could have saved the situation because it was within my power ( but guess what, I didn’t even try, maybe because I was weak or got tired even before starting). Well, I was at fault so I was to be blamed.

I spoke to my friend about it and she said I can’t change what happened but I could change other things, I could change how I let that affect me, I could change how it makes me feel and I how I feel about it (it’s something to ponder on).

I know I am not alone in this boat. So many have caged themselves because they had to take the blame and live with the guilt. While some had the strength to move on, others didn’t. While some cried as a means to console themselves others acted like it was nothing and they let it eat them deep down.

It’s okay to take the blame, it’s okay if you feel bad about it, it’s okay if you keep wishing for a second chance to do better. But the big question is have you moved on? Or you are like me who acted like there was nothing?

What if it’s time to move on, to put all of it behind and move…

A LETTER TO YOU

Dear Friend,
I trust you are doing good, I am super excited to be writing you this letter. I hope you are staying strong in the midst of all this?

I must say I am proud of how far you’ve come, I know as humans it’s easy to forget how far we have come instead we dwell on the worries of how much needs to be done: the distance to our next destination, nevertheless, the next destination is the bus stop for another journey. Do not let all of this overwhelm you, it’s okay to take it one step at a time.

I also know you are trying to be a better version of yourself daily. You being so intentional about your growth is really amazing. Don’t forget that there are times you might feel like giving up but when that time comes, remember why you started and if you can’t remember why just say this to yourself, did I have to go through all the stress and struggles just to stop halfway (a gentle reminder, do not let all of that be in vain. You can thank me later)😁.

Lately, a lot of things have been happening alongside a specific event occurring back to back. I know I am not the only one that feels that kind of way sometimes hence I decided to share with you. I know you feel pressured sometimes, well I do so😶. While I can handle it well on someday, other times I get so broken by it. I would like to know how you handle pressures, what do you do in order not to feel pressured? Feedback would be appreciated.

So during the week, I learnt something, I was guilty of it before and it’s possible you also might be. Most times we forget the action part and just focus more on the prayer part. It’s important to know that for some things only prayers can’t solve, you need to put in that action, make that call, take up that role and then back it up with prayers 😉.

Here a gentle reminder, you’re smart, wise, kind, an amazing soul, a loving person, you’re beautiful, you’re strong, you can do so much and you are much more.

Cheers to being better and doing better🥂.

A LETTER TO MYSELF

Dear Baby Girl,
I know you are doing fine; I also know you’re trying to be strong even in these difficult times. You really don’t know how excited I am writing you this letter.

I have seen you grow really fast these past few months and I must say it’s been really impressive and I am proud of you; you’ve become a better person than you were yesterday, I am sure a lot of people can testify.

You’ve taken so many challenges these past few months, some you completed others (a story for another day😂). Despite your introvert nature you have tried to be a little on the outside and that’s really cool. I’m glad you’ve come to understand the importance of circles, I am also glad you are putting all you’ve learnt into good use.

I also know you are trying to pick up some good habits like eating healthy diets, exercising more (although this one is super hard), being positive at all times and the rest. Do not forget to also drop the bad ones, I know you can do it.

I know there are days you will feel on top of the world and days you will be at your lowest, days you are going to be tired and frustrated (like today) and other days when you will be filled with so much positive vibe and good energy. Do not forget to always put on a positive attitude, always wear a smile and bear a mind-set of gratitude.

Lest I forget, I know you have flaws and there are times you feel like changing certain things about yourself. Well here’s a gentle reminder, you are beautiful, imperfectly perfect and you are enough, you are strong and can achieve whatsoever you put your mind to do. I am grateful for how far you have come, I am grateful for the wonderful friends you have, I am grateful for that which you’ve achieved.

Cheers to more of all the good things, cheers to being better and doing better, cheers to better days 🥂

Ending before the End

Have you ever been in such a situation where you made up your mind to do something and you stopped halfway?

Mine is exercising regularly, some others might be taking up a challenge like the no sugar challenge, reading at least 2 books a week or even drinking water and minding your business.

Most times we set goals and we are really determined to go through with it but along the way we stop, maybe because we didn’t get the results soon like we wished, or we got tired along the way, or a thought crossed through your mind is it even worth it (well, it is worth it).

It’s important to be intentional about the goals you want to achieve. Sometimes all we need is being conscious, a little patience, consistency and self-discipline.

Remember everything worthwhile takes dedication and time.